To the guys who broke my heart.
At first I hated you. At first I had no idea why you didn’t want to work on things. At first all I could think about was how I could have fixed things. At first I questioned myself everyday. At first I tried to make sense of it. At first I cried a lot and at first I wish I never met you.
But now, I thank you.
Thank you for letting me go. Thank you for not wanting to work on things because I started working on myself; rather than working on us, something you gave up on. Thank you for not letting me keep trying to fix something that wasn’t possible to fix. Instead I realized I can’t fix you. I can’t change you, nor should I have to. Thank you for letting me grow as a person. You have taught me what I want and what I don’t want in life. If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have learned what I learned about myself. Every relationship you get into, you learn more about yourself. You realize what matters and what doesn’t, you see what you actually want from a relationship. Thank you for not taking me back because it made me question what I actually wanted in a partner. I got so caught up in what made you happy that I forgot what made me happy. I’m glad I met you though, because regardless of how I feel right now, you were once everything I wanted.